Goldfish

Okay so last week I unintentionally killed about 10 goldfish. No i'm am not a sick person who likes to kill innocent gold fish. I am simply an employ who was following orders. So i work at a day care and my boss thought it would be a cute idea to put lil fish in water bottles and have the kids take them home as gifts. Yea that was a cute idea for about an hour. Because before I knew it, only one fish was left alive because he got lucky and was put in a baggy instead of a bottle. So a parent informed that they died because basically they didn't have enough room to move around and water couldn't go through the gills so they kicked the bucket.

If you are reading this you are probably thinking, well duh. But we take care of kids not fish so we didn't know and we felt bad. Although one of my kids suggested that we use batteries on the fish to bring them back to life. But i don't think that would work. But it was a good suggestion.

Okay so in this same week i learned a very important lesson. That had absolutely nothing to do with me killing the goldfish, but i'm going to attempt to tie everything together.
Okay so life is short, not as short as a goldfish's life but short none the less. SO it is vitally important to do what you love. And this is more then something you enjoy. I am very blessed because almost everyday i am able to do what i love. I love to dance, i was tapping the other day and thinking to myself, it is so great that i can tap. And even though i love to dance, its hard sometimes, because i'm not a perfect dancer, it's hard gettin work as a dancer and i don't perform as much as I want to. but i do it no matter what. which brings me to the second part of my lesson learned, do what you love because you love it. Then all other things, recognition, fame , satisfactition will come to you. Because if you start doing what you love for the wrong reasons, then what you love doing will turn into what you just do. And if you loose that passion then you loose part of yourself.

My mom is i believe well in her 50's and she plays tennis. She is never gonna be pro, there aren't to many tournaments she could go to, and if they are she probably wouldn't go to them. she simply just loves playin tennis. And I admire her for that

okay back to the goldfish. Sometimes i do what i love but i get frustrated because i see people doing more. Like people dancer more, or starting a career or whatever. But i have come to realize that God as put me in this particular fish bowl for a reason. and it may not be the ocean but i'm going to make the most of it. Because maybe right now i'm not ready to swim in the ocean, maybe all i need is right here in the fishbowl i'm in. And one day i'll be able to swim in that sea, and they won't be any other fish like me.

yes that was cheesy but im proud of it

spin on your head thrusday

19, I had 19 two year olds and three year olds all to my self at one point in time at work.

And the maximum we are suppose to have is 12. Chaotic would be the best way to describe it.

Okay but I think it’s been my official first week of super and it has been crazy. But good mostly.

Now let me start off with the issue that I am still constantly running over and over again in my mind. Okay so Thursdays night me and two best guy friends went to this place called J.U.I.C.E. which stands for justice uniting in creative energy (http://rampartjuice.com). Pretty much isn’t uniting people of all ages and gender and race through the elements of hip hop. So me and my friends got to watch a bunch of break dancers. And seriously every time I watch breakers I gain even more respect.

They seriously defy gravity. It’s not even that it’s like they challenge it. It’s like gravity says you are suppose to be upward. But no they change things ups by beginning upside down half the time. And I gotta admire they’re strength. Because it has to be hard to hold all your body weight on one arm. And to watch them hang upside down and see the sweat drip from their tense faces. It was a show of tense muscles, limbs, tattooed and non tattooed legs and arms flying, jumping, spinning and freezeing in mid air. Gotta admire it. Oh but the best part of the night was there were a lot of people that were really good breakers, but if I would have passed them on the street, and they told me they break danced, I would have been like “ psh” yea right.

And I loved this little boy. He was sooo good. And fearless with his rainbow shoes. He was battling dudes twice his size and keeping up with them.

So I guess what I go from all is this, is that it’s good to have a passion. Something that u just love to do. And that we don’t need language to communicate/ and that there can be positive energy and guidance if u look for it and provide it.

So I say go out there and spin on your head.!

hold the door please

The morning bird is up. Although it was a little hard for this bird to crawl out of her nest, so she just rolled out of bed, and eventually landed on her feet,’ So I’m starting this whole self reflection things to see where it leads me. Maybe I’ll unlock hidden truths or hopefully just simply entertain who ever finds time to actually read this.

Okay so writing about yesterday today. The morning started pretty good. Had my two cups of coffee, aka the two best co workers These girls almost always have energy, and are the only two girls I know that can mess around that much and still get work done.

Anyways, we were all in the toddler room ( I work at a daycare). And ana was singing and dancing around, letting us all know that she got herself laid last night. Lol. Reminding us all that getting some is a good thing. Sex, when done safely is a pretty darn good thing. Let’s not try to hide from this people. It’s instinct. Okay but anyway day was going good. Chases a few kids around the room. One kid banged his head against the door, and walked away unphased. Proving that children, although fragile, can virtually indestructible.

Oh favorite part of the morning,. Wait no, two favorite parts of the morning. First when my co worker called me from the other room and told me that she found a mouse underneath the sink and didn’t know that to do. Lol. It’s really nice when people depend on you . Second is when me and Tai randomly starting singing and dancing in the hallway at work. Hahah I swear we get work done.

Afternoon was a little more crazy. I was in the baby room by myself for about four hours. Dealing with four crying babies. But I held it down the best I could. I fell in love with this one girl, cus after her little cry fest when I first got there. She was soo good. She didn’t cry, she just sat there and was adorable. Until she tried to climb out of her high chair that wasn’t cool. Lol Oh I got her before she got all the way out.

After work, went to Taco Tuesdays. Love conversating with people. And through this conversation let me remind you of some very important life lessons. 1. hold the freakin door open for the next person behind you. We all have felt that gusted of when the door slams in our face. It’s like the simplest thing to do but yet the hardest because it’s rarely ever done. 2. be young. Really if you don’t have to have a kid in your twenties. If you do, more power to ya. But be ready, have a bottle of aspirin and patient waiting for you in the cabinet.

Okay so as I rap this up, let me just , I hate people with hummers. Because there is no really reason to have them. I think that are pretty darn useless, so in other words people just like to flaunt they have money, but in a tacky way. Buy a Mercedes if u got the money. Anways life is short, remember to laugh.